second half marathon

The Twin Rivers YMCA Freedom Run 1/2 marathon report.  It was rough.... Discovered that I do like trail running better.  I wanted to quit so bad, but didn't.  I think between running 2 half marathons in a week basically and not feeling well, my mind wasn't in it.  I vomited, and tears were shed.  I stuck on finishing dead last, and I do mean dead last as in the police escorted me a bit as cones were picked up and another runner came back to radio in that they found me.  I had no support really and I don't on this journey so sometimes it's rough and I felt it Sunday. The course was all flat so should have been a piece of cake.  Running is such a mental game, that if you aren't mentally in it, it gets rough.  I wanted to quit so bad, and all I had to do is just tell the Sheriff that was following me, that I couldn't go on.  It would have been so easy to do that, but I'm not much of a quitter and just couldn't stand seeing the DNF on the shirt from the race.  DNF means did not finish.  I wore my shoes out to the point that you could feel every rock which sucked.

****I do have to say, I am officially 35 lbs away from where I want to weigh for fitness competition.

first half marathon=completed

I did it, I made the jump by setting off to do my first half marathon.  It was a lot of pressure on me at first because last year at this time, I was set to do my first half, and I ended up having knee surgery on the day I was supposed to run it.  This year, I not only signed up for my first half, I signed up for a trail one in another state... So lots of pressure there.  I woke up the day of the race at 5AM, so I gave myself time to get there on time to start.  Wisconsin trails are not like Nebraska trails, more like Maui trails, one false step and into Lake Michigan you go.  I wasn't expecting that type of trail nor did I train on trails much.  I did however train in the middle of the afternoon this summer so the extreme heat that Milwaukee is saying was tough to deal with, made running it a little easier.  At mile 9, my feet were completely numb, I have a huge blister on my toe, and heel from the too small size of shoe that Dick's sporting store sold me even though I did train in those shoes with my longest run in those shoes being 10 miles.  I loved this race, and even though I was expecting to be last as it was a Boston qualifer, I did not get dead last, 3rd from last though.,... I know what I need to do, to kick it's ass next year.  Well I am signing up for another half next Sunday for 9/11, and it's a flat run so no hills or one lane trails.  Also eyeballing a 21 miler but it's in October and I don't know if I can do that much with little time to train.

30 more days

30 more days until my trip for my photoshoot, and my first half marathon.  For once I am starting to feel confident about my first half marathon.  Went for my first 10 miler the other day and did pretty well.  I Personal Best my 5k today, after doing 6 miles yesterday.  The weight is slowly coming off, which it was this hard to gain it back.  It's a mental game though, and it's tough.  When I go to the store to look at clothes, I keep thinking that I am way bigger than I am.  I had a breakdown last week in Target dressing room, and to this day, I still can't believe it.  This is the smallest size I have ever been in my adult life.  Haven't been this size since Jr. High.  Its hard when you have been condition to be that overweight girl, most of your life to think like other people.  It just dawned on me tonight, that 2 more sizes smaller, I will finally be in the single digits.  My goal this month is to lost 15 lbs before my trip.  So far 4 lbs in the last 4 days.  Been upping my workouts to 2 times a day, and getting a workout at work now that I am a delivery driver who lumps her own truck.  I am not avoiding people, just been trying to work on my own self, and in the process it's finding my own ways of doing it and I haven't been hanging around a lot of people, because its a personal journey for me and I know people don't understand it, and I don't want to be tempted to slide back into old ways.  Food to me is an addiction, so by not hanging around a lot of people, I am less tempted to give into that temptation which is hard to do when society is based on food.

Weight loss is such a personal journey as everyone has different ways of doing it, and each journey is special.  It took me awhile to restart this journey and now I am finally starting to see what the hard work and dedication is doing not just physically but mentally too.  I did my 10 miles when it was 88 degrees out in the middle of the hottest part of the day, not hoping to hurt myself but to learn more about what my body can do and handle.  I am stronger than what I think I am.

well I made the jump

I am almost down 70 lbs from the last year.  I went to Targets the other day and about had a break down, cause for the first time since like Jr. High, I was able to get into, button and zip these shorts.  I was also able to get into a jr. size shirt.  I signed up for my first half marathon being held in Milwaukee as I have 2 photoshoots while I am there to do as well.  Figure why not race in a different state.  Stuff is finally coming together. Pic from last year to this years color run. 

6 months

So I had a lateral release done on Jan. 5th on the same knee I had previous surgery on... Had some complications due to swelling for a few months, now it only swells if I am on it a long time, or just a lot of use.  I have started back with running, and working out.  In fact, only 47 lbs away from the weight I want to be for competition.  I am on this working out almost every day, switching up workouts including boot camp like exercises as well as bicycling.  I am back to training for a 1/2 marathon in Sept. The one I couldn't run last year due to surgery.  It seems like forever since I have felt this ok working out with all the knee issues.

Here is a recent pic.