the ah-hAH moment

Yesterday I was so hungry all day, realized protein was low for the day.  Also learned do not eat spaghetti before Zumba cause it make my stomach hurt, even 2 hours after eating it.

 So today while at gym, some lady was talking and asked if I was running.  I really didn't think she was talking to me, so I didn't answer, so she came around the corner and asked again.  I am like yea, she said well you look like you are into running.  Um, ok..I just got into running, I really don't consider myself a runner of any sorts, in fact I really hate running but am making myself run.  In fact, today at the gym I felt like nothing as if going to the gym was like going to work.  I am normally one for the gym, but today it was kind of a drag to go.  I didn't want to be there, but went anyway and am glad I did.  Apparently the lady who asked me in the locker room, is a fitness instructor and said I should take her class, which apparently a lot of marathon runners take her class.  We had a nice long conversation about fitness.  I thought that rocked because I still see myself as a fat girl not someone who runs.

I am really working hard, as I have a photoshoot coming up on April 19th and I feel that I can lose 10-15 more lbs before the shoot.  The shoot is way out of what I normally do, so it will be interesting as it is outside of my comfort level but I want to expand my horizons.  I am down another 3 lbs since Friday, so I can literally say I ran/hiked my booty off this week.

Oh, I went on a date.  Like I am not a dater, as most people who are overweight seem to have troubles getting dates.  I am on of those girls.  I can actually count on 1 hand how many boyfriends I have had in my life going back to high school years.   I just was never really into dating, and thought why would anyone want someone like me, especially being overweight.  Or I was too busy living life and trying to achieve my goals to think about dating  It went well, and we hope to go out again.  Even now, I am iffy about dating.  In the past few months I have worked really hard to beat this weight issue and I don't want some guy getting in the way of that.  Not everyone understands the journey or how tough it is.  So my first rule of dating, is they have to be supportive of my fitness and my fitness goals.  I can't date someone who is going to tell me it's ok to not workout because it is so easy to slide back into old habits.